Where does Motivation Come From?

I struggle with this everyday. Just getting out of bed is hard. Ryker is my alarm clock, but most days I really don't want to get up and I wouldn't if it weren't for him. I always wonder if anyone ever feels "refreshed" in the morning and how many actually get a good night sleep?  Maybe when I start eating healthy and working out I will start feeling that way. But where do I find the motivation? I have my start day set. I plan on sticking to it, but in the back of my mind I am not feeling it. It's not just about eating healthy or working out, it's about finding the motivation to do the dishes, clean the bathroom and do the laundry etc. I know my role now is a stay at home mom. It's what I wanted and yet I don't like it. Well I take that back. I do like it, but I feel like I am missing something.  Maybe motivation comes from feeling complete, or from happiness. But this is a vicious circle as far as I'm concerned. I would be happier, 30 pounds lighter, which will make me feel better, which will give me the energy to clean the house and motivation to eat healthy. But I have to start this cycle to get 30 pounds lighter and get that energy. ~sigh~ So how do you jump in when you are so far off the track?  I want to know how to wake up feeling like I got enough sleep to last me through the day. I need that energy to get going. Where is it? Coffee? 5 hour energy? ha ha. It the starting part that's hard. Does motivation come from society? We don't want people coming into our home and seeing our house in disarray. We don't want to go to the beach or the pool with our kids and have others see us in a swimsuit unless we look like a magazine model.  Maybe I am being too critical, striving for perfection when it really doesn't exist.  Alex always tells me I am too hard on myself.  Maybe motivation comes from a sense of accomplishment.  Once the task is complete you feel good that you got it done. But again, it's the getting up and starting it that's hard. As I type I think about the things that need to get done today. Nobody here to tell me to do it but myself, so as I type about motivation, I guess I better just take the first step, get off my butt and get started.